Jeremie Aliadiere has spoken out about sinking into depression after enduring a nightmare at West Ham United.
The French striker signed for the Hammers on loan from Arsenal in 2005.
He only played eight times for West Ham. But it was a pivotal time in his career which left him battling depression.
That’s according to the man himself in a candid interview with Football London.
Forgotten West Ham striker Jeremie Aliadiere
Aliadiere moved to West Ham after a failed spell north of the border with Celtic.
The Hammers, then managed by Alan Pardew, took over his year-long loan deal.
But as was an unfortunate theme throughout his career, Aliadiere’s time with the Hammers was derailed by injury.
Only this time it left him worried for his future and stuck in a nightmare.
‘At first I thought it was brilliant’
“When West Ham were interested I thought this was brilliant,” Aliadiere told Football London.
“I went there, did my medical and everything was fine then suddenly, for whatever reason, they said they wanted me to train with them because they saw something on the MRI scan, a little injury on my ankle.
“I’d never had that identified before. I said okay, it wasn’t a problem and I was fit enough. I trained and I got injured on my cruciate ligament. No insurance. I didn’t sign any document. I hadn’t been told that. That agent never told me.
Scary Hammers spell left me depressed
“All West Ham did was say if I needed an operation or medical care they’d take care of it. Obviously I couldn’t sign the contract. I had no club.
“It was really scary. At that time – I was 27 – that felt like the end of my career. I won’t play for a year. Who’s going to take me after that? Nobody knows what sort of rehab I’m going to get. I was sure it was over.
“For a couple of weeks I didn’t move from my sofa, I was a zombie, really depressed.”
Aliadiere, 35, has now retired with a record of 54 goals in just 244 career games.
He also played seven times for France Under 21s, scoring once.